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First week of school and my unexpected surprise…

Hello all! I’m excited to be back on here to update you on my adventures as a second year teacher. School in my district started this week, which to be honest seems way earlier than when I was in school. Summers don’t have quite the same connotation to teachers and students as they once did. With that said, I did have a great summer regardless. I finished up my master’s program (CADRE) in June. I went on a 2,800 mile road trip with my hubby and 3 sons… it was awesome! All-in-all, my summer was pretty full and rewarding.

Anyway, back to the topic of school. I met all of my new 8th graders and was able to easily determine on the first day those who will be quite the handful, lol. It’s always those attention seeking kiddos who are the most trying. By Friday, I had already assigned them one homework assignment, given them a survey, and had small group activities to work out our “Be Safe, Be Respectful, Be Responsible” classroom rules. They think I am a little tough, which means I’m doing my job 🙂

So, about that unexpected surprise… yesterday I didn’t quite feel right. I was kinda sad and felt like something was missing. I couldn’t quite figure it out. I noticed that I’d look at a student and would mention that so-and-so looks like so-and-so from last year, or talks like that person, or acts like that person, or has the same name. By the end of the day I was worn out and depressed, but I didn’t know why… then it hit me. I was mourning the loss of my students from last year. They were gone and I wasn’t going to see them again unless they visited me. This revelation caused me to start crying like I lost a loved one. It was horrible and not something that I’ve ever heard another teacher talk about. In fact, I’m crying right now writing about it. What’s even worse is that I was practically shoving them out of the door on the last day last year… now I want them back. I think that what this shows me is that I truly care for my students and that we built some really strong relationships with each other. I hope that this will be the case for me this year as well, and maybe instead of pushing them out the door on the last day, I will savor those last minutes with a new sense of knowing that I may never see them again but that we made a difference in each other’s lives.

Well, I need to get back to working on my class syllabus and preparing for open house. I will post again soon.

— Stephanie

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Emotional Good-Byes

http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/vault/article/magazine/MAG1108100/index.htm

Soooo, this article was very emotional. It really sums up how important tradition is in all aspects of my life. If it weren’t for the little things that I do with my kids and family each year, I would struggle when times get tough. These little gems of happiness get me through the roads that are hard to trudge.

I love putting Easter eggs in the front yard so my kids think the Easter bunny visited them personally. I look forward to putting treat bags on my front porch (and those of other little kids in my family), so they feel special because Rudolf was jealous of Santa and wanted to give them a present too. We always eat M&Ms when we watch movies, play Ispy when we are super bored, and say “I love you” even when we are really mad at each other. One tradition that I’m sad to say good-bye to is our Summer trips to the dollar theater, which is now gone. I have felt a little lost without this tradition. The stale popcorn, the sticky floors, the obnoxious arcade… the really cheap movies that we wouldn’t get to see otherwise. I LOVED it… and now I really miss it. I think it has affected my kids and me, and I’m sad to say that this Summer has not been near as fun as past ones. We really need to brainstorm…

This is why I think that tradition is so important. Without these little things to look forward to and spice up our routines, life isn’t quite as interesting. As a teacher, I believe that I need to incorporate these little traditions into my classroom to give my kids something to look forward to. I realize that there are lots of other things that make school, life, etc. interesting, but honestly… if students don’t have something they get to take ownership of and know they helped create, then the community will just not be as tight. I look forward to creating memories and traditions with my students. We may not have a “Butch” to carry to games, but we can start something that will transcend beyond their class and into their personal lives.

— Stephanie

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